I thought I'd let my subconscious take over today for the title. I just put the first thing that came to mind. I'm a bit tired now, so I'll focus on interpreting it later. >_<
Music:
I've been in a musical slump recently. I just haven't felt the inspiration to learn anything new on piano and my performance in band hasn't been entirely satisfactory (though this isn't entirely my fault). I just feel like too many of my emotions and thoughts have been pushing away my musical inspiration. I hope Mr. Thomas get our normal Tubas back soon, these heaps of brass we've been using this week can barely be classified as an instrument; mine is impossible to get in tune. Anyway, to get away from the pessimism in band, choir has been good as usual for me. Seth seems to be taking a sharp decline though. Don't hit a note that's too low and then blame me for being out of tune. >_< I think I know a little bit of what I'm doing by now...
Personal Life:
I have been exercising for three days now, and the results are beginning to show. If I can trust our scale, I have gone from 304 to 297 in just 1 week, which is impressive by anyone's standards. If it keeps up like this, I'll have no problem getting to 280 before prom. Just have to keep working at it. The other story for today, RAIN! Ah, I love the rain and we got quite a lot of it today! I don't know what it is about these thunderstorms. It's like this slightly tensious feeling you have throughout the day that makes everything so much more exhilarating, but at the same time, it seems to reveal my passionate side. They just have that odd effect on me I guess. I hope it keeps going. 1 more day of this weather will satisfy me. And the final thing I'd like to put here explains a little more of what I was talking about in the music section, my thoughts and emotions have really been imposing themselves on my life lately. I just wish I could go up to everyone I know and just tell them what I think of them. Of course, following through with something like this would hardly be beneficial. Some things I say might cause me bodily harm, some things I may say could be so positive that they would be met with sarcasm, and other things just wouldn't phase people the way I'd hope. All I can say is I'm so tired of holding back these emotions, but it's not worth risking everything. Just two more days and maybe I can put these problems to rest for a while...just maybe.
Sorry if this post is lacking the positive vibes. I'm in a good mood, I promise, I'm just kind of tired. Any thoughts of what I've posted today?
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one thing i learned is: if you keep stuff in, and push it away, itll come back, with a fury. you can tell people what you think without being...rude, and being effective. they might care and they might not, but either way you'll feel a lot better. and you don't have to.."stew" over it. as for the weight, good job! and keep working as hard as you can, you might exceed your goal.
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