Ohai blog

Ah, so much to express.

First, my dad was just talking to me about the future, he seems a little too concerned. He thinks I have no goals for my future, but that's simply untrue. What's my goal right now? To be a great musician. No, it isn't specific, but why should I try and limit myself. I want to know how to play every instrument, I want to be able to write coherent music, I want to be a great performer, I want to be able to make others happy with the beauty of music. I may not ever be to where I can do all of this, but I can try! If he thinks I don't have a goal, he'd better keep thinking.

Another issue he has with me is that I don't want to be the best. I don't that's true, but he shouldn't be taking my statement at face value. Look at those who are the "best" in our world today. There are very few good people at the top, a lot of them just got there by money or chance. I don't want to put efforts into being the best if sleaziness and money are the only way to get there. I can be playing solo in a coffee house every Friday night making $200 a show, but if I have more of a passion and knowledge for music than the "best" do, wouldn't that make me better than the best. On this side of music, the only way I feel I could be the best in my and my father's eye's is to somehow gain more popularity and musical appreciation than Paul McCartney, and I don't see that happening.

On the flip side of life right now, I'd like to discuss human nature. What have we all become lately. Everywhere I turn these days it seems that the dark side of nature is overtaking. Selfishness, ignorance, insecurity, and even elitism. I always knew it was looming, but it never felt like it hit so close to home. We all have to realize that our problems are often our own creation and that we're the only one that can change it. If there's someone you care passionately for, let them know how deep your love is. If your feeling boxed in, it's not them, it's you. Remember to be kind to those that care about you. If someone really cares about you as a friend, don't just overlook them. Let them know you care too. Be willing to accept some outside assistance every now and then. As dreadful as the thought of anyone ever helping you ever is, you obviously can't handle this all on your own. If your feeling insecure remember the you that think, no, knows you're special. Remember, there's always someone that loves you. Don't look at infatuation as an issue. Remember that she's just another girl, there's no reason to be so afraid. Remember not to stroke your ego so often. There's a reason why people won't listen to you.

And finally you, yes you typing this right now. You're not always right. You want to help your friends so dearly, but it never works because you expect them to take the exact course of action you suggest every time. Maybe you're right, you've definitely succeeded in find a path to happiness, but in the end your friends are going to have to find their own path. Just because things don't turn out the way you want doesn't mean you don't help.